I keep my silence close to me.

I cannot speak

My body shakes, rattling like a child’s toy

My mouth opens wide, tears

Stream down my throat:

I’m drowning

Don’t leave me alone

I swallow deeply, please

Answer me. I

Just-

I need to let go. To lay down. To sleep

But I can’t, I cannot

Where are you – Please,

Just answer-

I need to go

Lay deep in the earth.

Gain back all the lost time,

Please just-

Come back to me.

I close my eyes, I shake-

Just tell me where you are.